We are moving, and I must BE!

Moving is significant, I think, for all people. For me, however, it is very much so. I moved nearly once a year until I got to seventh grade. New school. New playground. New neighborhood. I thought it was fine.

But now, I'm close to 30 and the transition from one three-year period of my life to the awesome potential of a new period has me feeling many emotions. Awesome emotions that I'm quite sure I did not understand as a child.

Through these emotions, I learn about the shaping of my early reality...which is naturally still affecting me today. It is nearly over-whelming, and yet I feel calm.

Today is Friday the 13th. It is my very last day in the old apartment. I have internet work to do. However, I am sitting on a challenge to myself from last night: that today I would walk around the Silverlake reservoir naked.

Why?

As art? As a affirmation of my first amendment freedom? To shock old women and small children? Or just to experience liberation? Or just to be a selfish, attention-seeking lunatic?

Well, yes to everything but shocking the old women and small children. I don't want to do that. I thought I would bring a piece of paper to cover myself if I pass old ladies and kids. God forgive me.

In my heart I believe such an expression would be to challenge the world to be free, to challenge every individual to stand naked with their OWN TRUTH. To beg everyone to proclaim themselves.

My wife will be very upset. I most fear her dismay, particularily in regard to what her family might think about me after doing something so "crazy". And as I have a vow with her and God that supercedes all other vows, I really ought to opt out of this act.

Yet, I have a personal path of self-expression that I must follow, lest I succumb to bitterness. I have a light that I must shine for the world to see. I am not ashamed of my light.

So I walk.