I was healed...like, again and again and again...

If you assume that you have only one shot at life -- a dream which starts in childhood and either comes true or (most likely) doesn't -- then you will only get one shot at life.

On the other hand:

If you realize just how many lives are packed into each life, then you will be set free. You will realize that you recover from illness and pain. You recover from selfishness. That, in fact, life is a healing process...one in which we confront pain, learn to handle it, and become inspired at our ability to do so.